just short of a miracle

while the physical world physically separated Eran and I again after the 10 days we had spent together, the spiritual world united us in a way that in the simplest definition was just short of a miracle..there where defiantly some day that i just didn't  want to get out of bed, but life forces you to be accountable for the other people that you bring into this world, relying on you to get the fuck up and to stop wallowing in self misery participating in the life they need you to be apart of as their mother..There was such a void in my heart, a hallow place that was in so much pain that I just wanted it to all be ok..i had to allow my faith to over ride any other low self esteem emotions that were either thoughts of my own, or outside chatter trying to infect such a beautiful opportunity of fate..Eran had an appointment with the American embassy a short time after I left my 10 day visit with him for his VISA interview..its not always easy for Israelis to get a visa to the states, and this was one of the road blocks that we had spoken about..sometimes the universe works its magic mastering its abundance for you in the most opportune ways..what typically would be a short term visa when granted, was an abundant 10 YEAR visa allowing us the ability to have father time on our side..when you plug deeply into your destiny and decide to commit all the way, no matter how choppy the waters are around you, if it is truly your fate that you are following, magic will be at the forefront of the universal shift that allows you to bare witness to the enchanted happenings around you each step of the way..there is no preparing the world around you for what is about to transform, when it sounds like your speaking nonsense..Eran had purchased a week later his plane ticket to MOVE to the united state to be with me and my children, taking the greatest biggest leap of faith ever..He closed up his private acupuncture clinic, and slowly started to say goodbye to the country he is so passionate about and the family and friends that have forever been the joy and heart to his soul..sometimes, the change you decide to make comes at a price you must be willing to pay, emotionally, physically, spiritually..it is never free when you decide to alter a course that you are on for another road to travel..the fact that he risked all this for me, gave up everything in the process, and said goodbye to those who had been his rock his entire life was the most daring courageous brave act of a human I have ever witnessed..there will never be enough words to thank him for what he did that day, when he packed up his life and waved goodbye to his home and people as he boarded his flight to come to me..still to this day as I write our story, it sends waves of super human awe of what he did that day, for me, for us, choosing this love for me over any other love he had held in his heart..even though we had many many  future obstacles to face, it never altered or prevented us from continuing this journey together that we both knew to be a soul gift, something that doesn't happen to anybody randomly..so while I waited with my children at the airport that one blizzard night, with his plane being the last one before they shut down the airport and waited, and waited, until an immigration officer called me to confirm his identity and ask me a series of questions trying to get us to admit his reason of arrival instead of the story we decided to give as an alias..i realized that my beautiful banana boy grown up fucking man, my knight and shinning armor, my beloved was about to come threw the doors that kept us separated for an extra 2.5 hours testing our patience, was finally walking to me, to us  and had finally made it to where we had always belonged, back in each others..love is powerful, more powerful than most will ever allow themselves to realize, and we knew exactly the gift that we both held, for ourselves and too each other..