it was there my inner phoenix was born

there are specific times when we are called upon by the universe to finally participate in epic shit, even if we are not feeling so outstanding to do so at that particular moment, maybe possibly not even able to recognize the value of this gift because of where we feel we are..but that from what I have learned,  is the absolute perfect point..the door will begin to open opportunities when we least expect it, maybe within our lowest point of calling simply as a test to see if your willing to commit to the prayers you have been screaming loudly silently religiously giving you a shot at your dreams sometimes even at the most inconvenient times..the question is what do you want to do, really?I cant stand, have no patience, for someone who complains all the time about their life not ever taking a breathe to see and have ownership of how they got there..more importantly what can be creatively changed, altered, improved, revamped, landscaped, planted, and finished in the moment giving them clear opportunity for revival of self.. its so unfortunate that not every body wants to evolve heal change because miserable wears better than happiness I guess..they are a classic victim to their own personal spiritual massacre holding their own blades as the world is blamed for their shortcomings and problems one single personal slash as a time..I personally have a hard time with this specific behavior, probably because as a once gullible, timid, shy, unspoken, quiet easy to manipulate, fearful female unable to speak my truth,  I had to learn to fight to the death of that persona to attach myself to the goddess within and allow her to reign with my fierce scorpioness that was awaiting my absolute truth and it was there my inner phoenix was born..taking with me all the patheticness as I crashed and burned into the cavity of my inner darkness returning with a mastery of wisdom glowing radiantly declaring my return to authentic self..my FIRST beloved of a series of symbolic tattoos was the phoenix on my neck supporting the journey In the making I was about take..literally, I came back the titanium warrior..I know not every one has the tools and strength to accomplish change, shit I didn't either, but when the energies of the universe are knocking at your door, offering you the opportunity for change, why would you waste the wishes that you have spent moments crying into your hands to roll off and onto the floor that will forever pool in your keyless dungeon..you have to RISK in order to succeed in anything that you do..you have to BELIEVE in your mission profoundly and you have to have unwavering FAITH when everyone else wont..I feel the universe starting to challenge me again, I see and feel the possibilities that are up and coming and its only within my own strength that I can follow with an open heart doing my homework and taking notes for this upcoming EPIC CHANGE..yes, it is scary, yes it is hard, yes it is unstable, yes it is challenging, and yes it takes all of your courage to RISE to the occasion, but that should never derail you from the dreams you dream, the prayers you pray for and the vision you wish to ascend too..good luck and may you find the wisdom within the lesson when you are able to leave the outworn behind shedding your limitations so the universe can be limitless with your prayers rewarding your bravery every single shift at a time! peace love faith hope..