there are some people in good conscious who go through life imposturing a persona that they dream to be

 imagine yourself for a moment if you can, going to a place that you frequent because it is the swankiest hippest place that every body just wants to be apart of..nobody can say why exactly that makes its so fucking cool or put their finger on it, but who cares, its the IT place that every one talks about and has taken a complete life of its own..while walking into this venue, you slightly notice the outside surroundings in an eye raising way, but immediately become more focused on the attention of the "beautiful" hot looking nipped tucked and injected girl wearing the most revealing outfit, greeting you with the brightest biggest smile instead..you loose all concept of whats really going on around you simply focused on the eye candy deliberately grabbing your attention luring you while showing you the way inside..magnetically allured, you walk into the darkness with specifically geared lighting to alter and illuminate the intimate details for making the ambiance feel mysterious and sexy all in the same breath..the music is bassing in the back round creating and stimulating another buzz around you enough that you can almost smell the erotic human behavior on the dance floor..at that moment, your feeling so damn cool like you just hit the fucking jack pot on places to go hang out..your a rock star legend in your own mind..your dancing, drinking, having the best fucking time socializing with your friends and all the new people you have been engaging with, when all of a sudden the circuit cuts out and all the lights go on..hearing the screeching record faintly in the back round like nails on a chalk board and seeing the once exciting atmosphere gone bad is now getting your undivided attention..you begin to notice your true actual surroundings that was once upon a time appeared to be an enchanted oasis is now becoming the complete and utter opposite exposing you to the real plainful blinding truth ..people in general, want to believe in something so much that whatever they hear, read, see, and feel they buy into even if its fake based on whatever is depleted within them currently..they eat up any kind of illusion so quickly because as humans when we are starving because we are not fed properly we can become delusional because of it..so how are you supposed to know and understand authenticity when you have been filling your self with superficial preservatives your entire life as a filler to the alternative route of natural and healthy ingredients that have been missing all along..how often do you out of desperation like or say yes to something, that in that moment knowing deep down, isn't your truth.. your pathetic self loathing ego rules your undervalued self for what otherwise would be a no quickly feeding the beast with a yes in order to shut it down..by doing so and behaving in such a manner we are essentially euthanizing our spirit slowly and steadily, miraculously altering and shifting our actual state of mind, faking it into believing something that isn't so real after all..there are some people in good conscious who go through life imposturing a persona that they dream to be in order to make it in this world..its like a script they write daily for themselves of how its going to play out rolling in character 24 hours a day..then one day when their not feeling so A game material, the wall of defensive comes down and the real deal sneaks out..thats a circuit breaker moment for the entire environment to bare witness too and what you choose to do with the out in the open knowledge is solely up to you..there will always be flags for you in the beginning of the journey, maybe slightly but steadily and all the opportunities to see them when we are coming from a balanced healthy perspective..sometimes when we are not so healthy we become unable to see these divine interventions as useful guide tips and chuck them up as wasteful information..eventually though, your aha of a moment will come and when it does, believe it, because when those lights go on, it aint fucken around anymore..peace love faith hope