the true emptiness of the ego thrives on needing validation and applause for looking like a righteous good person in a spiritual ornament persona, gag me with a spoon and BARF

I had a most personal transformational discovery this year that through virtue by some might have cost me a lot in the beginning, but in my hindsight was worth the gamble I took in order to really find my inner truth..you see, sometimes you have to be willing to roll your dice, show some of your cards enough that people realize you aint fucken around anymore and then decide if your going to play your hand out no matter the outcome..i realized in this specific process that there are some really extraordinary people who really DO have your best interest and those are the ones to hold on too nourishing the ties that bind you..i opened the exit door by rolling my dice strategically which gave way to those who spoke with thorns the opportunity to leave on their own accord because of personal limited truths which has nothing to do with me and everything to do with them.I have had some expected criticism for my outspoken decisions which is okay with me because I know in truth what I represent is very scary for most..i have come to realize that limited people see things in a limited minded way, with a limited space for you to occupy, that in essence holds a limited place for you to reside in their limited reality..that volume alone spoken is invigorating to the absolute freeing of the narrow capacity to which you once decided to reside me in..there is the old yet prudent saying that you are exactly what you eat, just like you are who you surround yourself with being true to your environment in all spiritual mental emotional and physical aspects..for example if you eat shitty food all the time, im pretty sure its going to effect your health holding you SOLEY accountable even when you try to shift blame to the food industry because its easier than being angry at yourself for the damage you first hand created..I see a lot of people "speak spiritual", yet their application and demonstration is the ultimate work of the ego instead of the humble gift within the spirit..the true emptiness of the ego thrives on needing validation and applause for looking like a righteous good person in a spiritual ornament persona, gag me with a spoon and BARF..im spiritual as fuck, with pure honest intentions and own entirely that I have gotten taken a couple of times by the spiritual chatter because I get so overly excited when people start to speak my language..surround yourself with people who get it, even if it is harder than it looks..it requires a form of understanding between your heart and your gut, your intuition and the mental and emotional cords that are connecting you to the universe instead of consuming you in the physical world that can be very distracting..we all want to believe and associate with things that keep us comfortable and stable, offering up a substance like fuel that keeps us living but not utterly alive to our grandest potential..don't ever be afraid of change, its apart of our required skill of humanness and aging..it is our experiences with life that we are gifted the natural process of discovering who we are and the things that we like and love that bring us happiness and maturity..there is nothing wrong with saying no more to things that are not healthy for you even if everybody else is still doing it..you are the only person who know what if feels like to be you and the only person who is responsible for your own peace of mind..do what makes you feel good, harming no one and yet taking no shit..be brave enough to be a leader instead of a follower to some one elses ways setting your own record trends..we are all wired according to our own desired uniqueness and what is good for one might not be so comfortable for another so just fucking rock your fierceness while the intimidated go away..peace love faith hope