i believe that even though there are people who don't like what I have to say, people still listen

 I have been thinking recently again, which in itself is a much scary thought, about shifting my self into adding something different into my repertoire tool box to further me along this path of life..i have be sitting with my purpose lately inspired by my husband and a couple of conversations I have had with respected friends about where I ascend from here and how far I can actually spread my beautiful wings..I can confirm at this moment that I haven't a clue what it is exactly I want to achieve, I just know what I have inside of my soul and a spirit that has the desire to spread wisdom and offer a chance at healing others along the way..i have loved what I do professionally as a manicurist and the connections made with people leading me to this continuous conversation with myself and the craving I have to connect with others around the other side of my manicure table..I am a spiritual junkie who loves to travel deep within the fields of emotions that most don't want to open up too..its almost like I feel the need to peal layers off people in order to expose what I see as the most beautiful vulnerable parts of the human spirit and spread love to those places that tend to stay covered up and closed..i want to expand the spirits consciousness where the meeting of rawness creates a spectacular connecting igniting the fire within..I believe part of this desire is my nature and the underlying need of wanting others to not feel so alone when their hearts are purposely speechless..to balance their humanness in a world where we have to either put down or one up another in order to be recognized in our natural state of originality or simply shut up because the world is not very ready for our truth..I don't believe in coincidence and think that everything that has come to a head in my personal life was the for the making of something bigger and grander inside and outside the boundaries that once confined me..i believe that even though there are people who don't like what I have to say, people still listen giving it room to breath because we all have fucked up shit in our life and im just willing to put mine on the table..so this leads me to here, the now, this moment and the cultivation of my desired potential and all the facets that intertwine and make up this need to elevate my human spirit..i ask myself over and over what is it that I want to do and how to go about doing it..is it in the form of a finally writing a book, taking a course, a platform to speak, maybe start my own podcast, doing something that scares the living shit out me in order to set my shit free..so I offer this out there with hope and love, as a way for the universe to eavesdrop on my thoughts and request while remaining open to receive its messages because they will come..I put this out there as a way to shine light on the possibilities of change we are all striving to make just some of us are louder at admitting it than others..im using my tarot card for my year of the hierophant as a energy tool that allows me to evolve and seek out the secrets life is imposing and offering to me as gifts of the work I have been doing..may you all have the courage to question your place in this life, giving you the ability to move onward from what is holding you still..may you find the success in just thinking outside the box created to keep you tight and neat and find the circle of souls who offer you the in sighted path to personal achievement and freedom..may you be courageous enough to listen to the sounds that scare you, and be fearless enough to shine brighter than dimmer switch used to control you..peace love faith hope