the true depth of our lens

sometimes life challenges you to have to see things for exactly as they are, the true depth of our lens, as disappointing as it is at times to the heart and mind..the shinny bright objects bedazzling your attention in the distance will have a completely different view from the perception of where you stand when you are up close and personal..people, for example, can appear to be your ideal people, and then when you get a closer look, sniff and feel, it is nothing as you believed or imagined it to be..when things are or appear far away you become able to create a fantasy that was all developed out of an empty thought that you conveniently fueled..we do this you know..make believe a scenario that doesn't exist until we have to face the pied piper of holy shits from both ends of the extreme..i have been a victim and a participant in this many times over partially because I was at times honorably gullible, naïve, and sometimes just plan stupid..i guess I came at things in the way that I see the world, which unfortunately isn't the case always..i used to believe that people held the same capacity of interest as I would and the same integrity and honesty, yet unfortunately based on failure this concept isn't very true and the shiny objects in the distance were dull and lifeless in its reality..sometimes we are convinced by our families or peers about things that we don't tend to see or feel and make decisions based on their perception leaving you on a joyride of a shit wash that you cant believe you just partook in..and then sometimes you listen with an open heart for your benefit and growth and you are gifted an incredible opportunity of experience..for example, I have been journaling for a very long time only on facebook, and my husband and friends would constantly suggest blogging..i couldn't conceive this notion and the idea from afar seemed scary, different, a pain in my ass, bla bla bla..in truth, I fucking love it..i should have been doing this years ago..so sometimes it is extremely challenging to see things as they are, even the beautiful benefits that are produced from it..I am constantly still struggling to see things with a clearer heart and mind because of the inner work I am doing and producing..it is not an overnight success and take a lot of patience and belief in your sensory that stimulates you to believe the nature of the situation..i used to buy expensive jeans, why, I was convinced it makes your ass look better and in the distance those jeans were popular and a hot commodity..in truth, those $150 jeans had holes in the back pockets quicker than my new found pair of jeans that are way much cheaper that makes my ass look just as bad ass and im no longer a slave to someone laughing all the way to the bank..challenging your perception is key in any formulated decision that your investing in, even if it is clothing..take a better look at the obstacles that you are up against and find out what the purpose of this moment is..is your attention in the wrong place, maybe with the wrong people, doing the things that are downplaying your attributes..should you be paying closer attention to whats behind the distraction instead of the distraction itself..if you believe that people have your best interest than you have an incredible established kingdom, but in truth, some people have their own interest at hand as unfortunate as that is while other people may truly want to lift you up and watch you succeed which is a blessed gift..i could have made less mistakes and used my time more wisely along my path if I had taken a moment to breath in the surrounds allowing them to marinate within my senses adjusting the lens of my intuition and perception to see all spectrums of a situation..im no longer attracted to shiny bedazzled sparkly things there to derail me from my journey and follow my heart soul spirit and body.. I decided to listen carefully and hear the inner voices of angels sent to me as my voice of reason when I am feeling delusional in my mind, and have cultivated a tribe of people I trust out of experience that hold my best interest when advising me..the blessing in all my mishaps and fuck ups is that I can authentically pen it and use it to my advantage hopefully reaching one soul at a time leaving you with digestible thought provoking insights..peace love faith hope