a spiritual standoff within a universal shakedown

 what you feed and nourish physically, mentally spiritually metaphorically in any capacity will grow, even if you don't realize you are doing so to any shape or form and then some believe it or not..on top of it actually, the universe will masterfully produce an energetic correspondent counterpart that will supersize your metaphorical garden and sprout some supersize things whether you intended on ever having them around or not, giving you EXACTLY what you manifested and more..many times, we give so much added extra empty attention and energy to situations that actually deserve very little consideration to be frank, because we just cant seem to help ourselves..on the flip side of that coin, sometimes we purposely avoid any awareness to situations that are red flagging us down all the while putting the head in the sand, hoping it will conveniently disappear as the universe is desperately trying to gain your awareness and trust...by doing so without realizing we single handedly create a monster of a problem yet want no attachment to its growth and ugliness..its like feeding a child tons of sugar at the circus and then getting angry that they behave like wild animals while getting completely out of control, then having a mental breakdown from the environment and YOU loosing your shit all over them for their behavior when you created it first hand..last week at work I found out from the other manicurist and not the owner herself mind you, that she had decided not to renew her lease for may (3 day notice) and found another person to move her own existing business in instead, IMAGINE THAT..while we were all in quite a bit of "shock" and an emotional state of what are we going to do kinda craze, the truth is we all knew this day was coming in any shape or form yet fear kept us from preparing for the ultimate truth and instead served us all a lesson..by avoiding all the flags, we all reluctantly continued to nourish the evolution of this perpetuating situation by avoiding doing anything about it even though we witnessed for ourselves this pending problem..none of us had the desire to move outside of the comfort zone and begin to structure a plan for the future that ultimately was our own responsibility that we left in someone elses hand..serving us up one giant WTF..for me personally, I know it was a spiritual standoff within a universal shakedown..i am being called upon to do some things that seriously scare the shit out of me even though i know my shit, that now I am more or less being energetically forced to do..its not that im lazy in any way shape or form, I just have a difficult time believing in myself enough to open my space up enough to let anybody in for more than what I already feel comfortable in doing and have done for 20 years..in the end, this whole shifting of business elements has been given in the form of a blessing and a gift to all of us because we now have been served up the reality and can decide for ourselves what we choose to do with it.. truth is, its an opportunity to grow emerge and ascend from where we have all been lingering and for that I am entirely grateful..so today I decided to test that water while at the bank and feel out my uncomfortable zone ..i was asked by some dude helping me how my weekend was and decided to responded with a truth of what I actually did.. "I went to Kalamazoo for a crystal and mineral show with my daughter to buy crystals for my tool box as a crystal energy healer"..as his eyes got large, he began to tell me all about how for the last year and a half he has gone organic and has made some healthier choices and began to ask me some more questions.as I explained the science and energy behind using crystal healing, I also told him about what my husband does thinking for sure I would loose him to the glaze of a eye roll..his sincerity, interest and curiosity was very unexpected and refreshing as he asked if i would bring him a business card of my husband and one of mine as well since i didn't have any one me..sometimes I don't give others enough credit in having an openness that is inviting for someone like me to step into and today was that perfect example..thank god for my universal conscious and the open awareness that is bold and present asking me to simply trust this process..it is the correspondence of what is happening within me and around me that i am being dialed in a very attuned way manifesting and nourishing these things to happen and take place..the lesson, TRUST YOUR OWN PROCESS..peace love faith hope