my body is speaking the language of shingles, and Im listening..

Do you ever have those day when you intellectually know you shouldn't be going to work out due to an illness or injury, yet find yourself in the threshold of the gym anyways..There are days when we show up for things that clearly we don't belong at, creating more harm than none by allowing the ideology of our wounded ego to speak in its micro managed language of nonsense..Some day you have to over ride your ego and listen to your body, even when you think and believe you know better because ultimately the body will always win..You also have to do so without the commentary and inner dialog of ridicule or mental punishment and just allow your self to be, without any extra added adjectives that will only diminish the value of listening to what your body has to say in the first place..This concept and understanding is essential to your self care and goes above the momentary disconnection between the mind body spirit connection, taking your vanities expression to another level..i see all the time at the gym, people who are incapable of obviously accepting that their body is struggling due to a physical ailment (illness, knees, shoulders, spine, neck) and compensating just to get the work out in with horrible form instead..Its like your requiring your body, which houses your entire system, to do something its incapable of doing and then being annoyed when it fails you in the time period you decided to designate for it..i wonder how many people would actually admit to abusing the power of their body in order to satisfy the needy thirst of their uncooperative ego..After my neck fusion 10 years ago (c3-c7) I swore I would always try to hear my body over the vanity of my wounded self any day of the week, even if it meant I temporarily out for the count..Yesterday was one of those days that I decided to hear my body,listening to the angry shingles that is currently attacking the nerves in body surrendering to the couch..I need to conserve the energy I would otherwise exhaust at the gym to help move this virus up and out so I can recover and heal properly..I am doing myself a disservice if I don't listen and ignore the signs I am being given to slow down and take a much needed break..We have choices, and then get repercussions for the decisions we make when we are not working from an angle that is of our highest self..stop being so hard on your body, and more importantly stop being so hard on yourself when you are being given an unsolicited vacation with a temporary illness..I know today that where there is pain there is growth, and you can heal anger with love..peace love faith hope <3 <3 <3