I always felt haunted in my own body by the ghostly feeling of these unresolved bleeding wounds of being given away. Even as a grown woman, I still needed & wanted answers that only she had the power to relinquish over me. What would make a mother want to give their child away was a very big question I had, especially becoming a mother of my own adding more emotions to wounds that would never seem to heal.
Read MoreIt was in that dreadful moment that I wasn't chosen & disregarded that I realized I had to literally begin to mourn the loss of my living father who metaphorically died that day as my dad. I was horribly criticized by the flying monkeys of my narcissistic mother & ostracized from this family for apparently abandoning my "parents", even though it was them who let me go that day. They remain toxically comfortable in their victim mentality, using the story of their own distorted truth to narrate the fucked up dynamics of their broken family.
Read MoreI always felt haunted in my own body by the ghostly feeling of these unresolved bleeding wounds of being given away. Even as a grown woman, I still needed & wanted answers that only she had the power to relinquish over me. What would make a mother want to give their child away was a very big question I had, especially becoming a mother of my own adding more emotions to wounds that would never seem to heal.
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